This blog entry,Twenty million people, and no water?, is about a water shortage in Mexico City. I don’t want to comment on the science of this particular issue, but global warming will make issues like this more likely. I hate the term global warming because it doesn’t capture the ugly resource shortages and competition that will likely take place. (Not sure where I found this link. Probably via Sullivan.)

There are technologies we can use that’ll help us through these crises. Here’s something from Climate Progress talking about recycling water: Toilet to tap — get used to it!

I’ve spent a lot of time angry today and the previous few days. There’s a lot of schoolwork and cleaning that I just resent, and I think that has been the source of my anger.

It’s odd how detached I can sometimes be from my emotions. At first, I recognized that I was angry, but I wasn’t quite sure why. Then, in the morning I saw a pile of dishes and I said, “Grrr.” I knew that living in filth was making me angry.

The problem with being angry is that it’s hard to compartmentalize. You react angrily to other things.

I’m going to pull this quote from Blackburn’s Ruling Passions out of context: “It would be tempting to say that if the thought of an object causes such responses, then this is what it is for it to be the object of an emotion. But this is not quite right. I may think of you and become angry. But it does not follow that it is you I am angry at. Thinking of you may remind me of the party where I met you, and this may make me angry for some quite different reason. … It is not the fact that you cause my anger …, however directly or indirectly, that makes it true that I am angry … at you. What does make it you that I am angry with is the fact that my anger is directed at you, or in other words, that I would be inclined to vent it upon you or to blame you for something, at least in the absence of other inhibitory mechanisms.”

It made me think about how I was angry at things that did not directly motivate my anger. I mean, think about a grouchy person as your bank teller. He may act grouchy towards you, but it doesn’t mean that he is mad at you. In that same situation, I’ve thought, “He must be having a bad day.” When you’re having a bad day, you may act miserably in contexts that aren’t the source of your anger.

Anger can take on its own life and become decoupled from what you were originally angry at. It’ll make you snap at people you care about, even though they did nothing to make you angry. So now I was that person “having a bad day” and being a general grouch.

I don’t want to be that kind of person, so I’m going to do my best to stop being angry in the first place.

Last night, I did an inventory of the main things that were making me angry: the filth and schoolwork. I’ve been doing a lot of complaining when it comes to both. Constantly venting did nothing to make me feel better. In fact, it just did the opposite. It has made me more and more angry. One of my roommates doesn’t do as much cleaning as I’d like him to, and makes a lot of messes. It’s stupid to complain because now I’m blaming him when obviously I’m contributing to the messes too. By complaining, I’m absolving myself of my culpability; I use him as a scapegoat. However, I’ve also absolved myself of the control of the situation. If it’s all his fault, then I can’t control him and therefore I can’t control the mess. If instead I focus on myself, then I can control how much I clean, and how much of a mess I make. I regain control of the situation instead of being helpless.

(None of this is new. I went through a bitching cycle before and decided I would stop complaining. Also, after reading Confucius, I decided that I would have to set a good example first, like a king setting a virtuous example for his people. If I can’t keep things clean, why should I expect my roommates to? I have to pledge to not complain again.)

Instead of bitching about my schoolwork, I can be thankful that at least my parents were able to put me through college.

This, by itself, wasn’t enough of an exercise to dissipate my anger. Regaining control of a situation is a necessary condition for happiness, but I don’t think it’s sufficient. I still had a lot of anger the next morning.

What did make my anger disappear? I talked to a couple of friends on the phone, listened to some goofy songs, and took a long shower. It was funny because before I called anyone, I was telling myself that I shouldn’t talk to anyone because I was too angry and wouldn’t be good company. However, my rational mind knew that the isolation wouldn’t help, so I made the phone calls.

Here are the lessons I have to remember:
1) When I’m depressed/angry, the best solution is interacting with other people.
2) Complaining always makes a problem worse. (Caveat: Complaining to the right people about a specific issue can make a difference. Example: My complaining about the dirty shower curtains in my dorm room. Other examples: With a business, a customer’s complaints can sometimes change things.) Specifically, if all you do is bitch about a problem, you’re making it worse. Find a solution instead.
3) Being angry can make you angry towards people you shouldn’t be angry at.
4) Assert your agency. Figure out what you can and can’t control about a situation.
5) Be a virtuous example before you blame others for not being virtuous.

Hypothesis: “There is no shame in being wrong. The shame comes from how you are wrong, or why you are wrong.”

Experiment: ? [Possibly: Use historical and personal examples.]

I have no idea if this is true or not… yet.

There are some very special types of stupidity that only smart people can achieve. Any stupid person can be wrong about reality. It takes a smart person to build a complex ideology around his wrongness.

I think the biggest issue for fixing the economy is Obama’s cheeriness. When Obama talks, is he optimistic enough about the economy? Or is he too gloomy? If he’s too gloomy, then people won’t have the confidence to invest. If he’s cheery, then the American people will become confident, take risks, and make the economy super-great.

Policy? Psh.

I get really weird when I’m tired, so I should probably not be blogging now.

STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP

The reason why I didn’t like my last entry was that I wrote it using an imperious tone that I didn’t deserve. It has less to do with my eloquence. I could express my point more eloquently, but it wouldn’t matter. Basically, I’m being an epistemic jackass. Let’s say you ask me, “What time is it?” I reply, “3:30PM.” I make this reply without hemming or hawing. I don’t say, “I think it’s 3:30PM” even though it’s true that I’m not actually sure what time it is. You are definitely warranted in believing my testimony. I’m the one being the jackass, speaking claims as truth when, in fact, I am unwarranted in making claims in such bold terms.

The lesson isn’t that you shouldn’t ever propose that it is 3:30PM, but if you’re unsure, well then you better damn communicate that you’re unsure.

So with the caveat that this is idle speculation, let me present a hypothesis about the “Obama is doing too much” meme. It does not feel as if it’s an argument made in good faith.

It does not feel like a real argument. First, it is a very odd criticism. You did not hear it from these people when Bush tried to fight two wars at the same time. It is not as if this is a sentiment that these talking heads normally put out there. Second, it feels as if it is a talking point as opposed to an argument. It has a uniform quality that comes from parroting as opposed to reasoned thinking. These are two reasons why I don’t think it is something that comes from the depths of these commentators souls.

My guess, which I will soon surround with more caveats, is that this is a delaying tactic as opposed to a real argument. Well, I mean, you don’t see them trot out arguments against universal health care, et al. You say, “Yes, I agree with X and Y, but I think we need to take care of the economy first.” These, however, tend to be the same people who have been criticizing Obama for his handling of the economy. The talking heads are also the target of Obama’s tax hikes and they don’t seem too happy about it. There’s nothing wrong with being opposed to Obama; I just wanted to point that general fact out. You can see it via Greenwald, where the pundits are now self-identifying with “The Establishment.” It all gets murky as to what alliances lie where (especially when it comes to civil liberties and how Obama is part of this establishment), but when it comes to the economic issue, you have Obama on one side and some rich people, including these pundits, on the other side.

It’s actually a subtle argument designed to attack Obama rather than his proposals. It’s couched in reasonable terms (oh, I think we should take it slow; therefore I am a moderate), but it is a very pernicious argument against Obama’s competency.

The problem is that Obama is popular. The more you attack him head-on, the more ridiculous you look. American opinion is behind him, not the cocooned opinions of the talking heads. The proponents of the “too fast” meme don’t like Obama’s current plans for the economy or his future plans for health care, etc. They say stuff like “Now is not the time,” but their real argument is “It’s never the right time.” You say the former instead of the latter to avoid the criticism that comes with making a bolder claim.

Now, the problem with my claim is, “Look, since when do pundits give a shit about not saying ridiculous things?” Also, there is the problem that I’m overgeneralizing and simplifying the psychology of a whole group of people. These are all things I hate when I see other people do them. So let me back off. I heard Jim Cramer make this argument. I heard my dad either make this argument, or quote others as saying it. My dad is generally conservative (whatever that means anymore) and does not like Obama in the first place. Jim Cramer likes to cloak himself as someone who voted for Obama. I know this game. I used to play it when I used my conservative cred to call for “liberal” policies. And my dad was employing an argument that would appeal to me as an Obama supporter. So in these two instances, we see a level of being disingenuous. They don’t like those policies, and yet they’re arguing that we should wait for those policies. My dad’s in the position of many pundits. Those who aren’t fully entrenched in the Republican cocoon face an audience that is comprised of lots of Obama-supporters. They’re not going to swallow the full-on argument, so you give them something more palatable.

There’s two levels of this, and it’s very reasonable for people to hold contradictory beliefs. Liberals did it all the time simultaneously portraying Rove as an evil genius and a bumbling moron. Sometimes, a person can be both, but this is a complicated thing to explain and I’ll just pass over the point.

The first level is giving an argument that is disingenous. You don’t care whether Obama is going slow or not. You actually don’t like his policies. The best way to defeat them is to say, “Not now.” You’re acting as a delayer when you can hopefully counter Obama when he’s less popular.

On the second level, you’re making an argument about Obama’s character, as opposed to the policies. Implied in going too fast is: He doesn’t know what he’s doing; he’s trying to handle too much at once. From this, one is supposed to further deduce: Obama is incompetent so we should not trust him to handle any issue. Hence, I would come to hold the opinion that one is trying to convince me all along — namely, that Obama is a terrible president. It is couched in moderated terms, but it is a terribly pernicious argument. It is designed to undermine Obama.

Is this second level disingenous? I mean, the first level is only disingenuous to an extent. It’s not an out-and-out lie, but it does have a level of BS. The second may actually be a legitimate concern. You don’t like Obama, and your interpretation is framed by your preconceived notion of his incompetence. Fair enough.

I think the disingenous claim, perhaps, is the proposition, “It is not the correct time to address problem X.” Your problem isn’t the timing, it’s the content of the way Obama is trying to address problem X. You also don’t care about the timing of issue X qua issue X, but with respect to any issue. It is worth asking that if X were something you supported, would you change your mind? My guess is that those arguing in good faith will answer immediately answer yes, while those arguing in bad faith will be temporarily taken aback by a question they hadn’t considered.

In any case, it is useless to argue against an argument made in bad faith. There are two purposes for the main argument. One is to delay against an issue somebody probably doesn’t like in the first place. It is probably necessary to ask whether the person would oppose issue X at all times, or even Obama’s approach to X at all times. A possible rhetorical move is to say, “Well, then, your problem is with X, not with the timing at all.” The second purpose is to portray Obama as incompetent. Any argument that it is possible to handle more than one thing at once isn’t going to undermine this claim. I think I’ve seen this argument on The Washington Monthly and maybe some other liberal blogs. Instead, it is a specific argument against a specific person. One must argue that Obama is good enough to handle all of this at once.

I didn’t do any work today. Not even laundry. I hope it’s hot tomorrow so I can wear sandals.

• One way to divide political theories: historical and ahistorical. I fall firmly into the camp of “historical.” I tend to call those who favor the latter “Idealists,” and I mean it as an epithet. They consider abstract governments with no care for people as they really are. I think the best expression of this is in Polybius:
  

  “As for Plato’s celebrated Republic, which is highly praised by certain philosophers, I do not think it admissable that this should be brought into the argument about constitutions. For just as we do not allow artists or athletes who are not duly registered or have not been in training to take part in festivals or games, so we should not admit the Platonic constitution to this contest for the prize of merit, unless some example can be provided of it in action. Up to the present, at any rate, the idea of comparing it with the constitutions of Sparta, Rome or Carthage would be like bringing for some statue and then comparing it with living and breathing men. For even if the statue were absolutely perfect in respect of its workmanship, the comparison of a lifeless object with a living being would strike the spectators as quite inadequate and incongruous.” – Polybius, The Rise of the Roman Empire, Book VI

  I do not think this is quite fair to Plato because that was not his intention. Still, the sentiment holds. Libertarians are usually ahistorical political thinkers.

• Capitalism is a giant failure. It’s dictates are grow and consume. Imagine if the Earth were a giant bank. Capitalism has been withdrawing from that bank and destroying our planet. Now, we’re about to default on the loans our ancestors have been taking out. The changes we are making to this planet are scary because mass extinction events are a rule of life. Basically, capitalism has elevated money for the individual over the existence of the human race. That’s “fail” in my book.
• Unfettered capitalism, the libertarian’s wet dream, will simply result in the collusion of the rich at the expense of the poor. Of course, that’s the nature of things even when you don’t have modern capitalism.
• Speaking of collusion of the rich, look at some aspects of our government. Telecoms break the law, but get off free because these rich people buy off, or call in favors from, their rich buddies in Congress. At least we have some modicum of change insofar as taxes are being raised for the richest among us. Still, I have to come back to this ancient idea of “mixed” government, where you have elements of monarchy, aristocracy, and democracy. It seems as if the “democratic” element is sorely underrepresented.
• The concept of radicalism currently entices me. The times call for radical, bold action. Our governmental system needs radical changes because it has allowed practical tyranny for the last 8 years and Obama’s administration is not eager to give up most of that power. Furthermore, moderatism will not save us from a warming planet when the changes are tracking the most pessimistic models.
• I want to be a radical but I don’t want to be an “Idealist.” Blech. Almost as bad as being a “dogmatist.”

EDIT: This post is very silly, full of silly generalizations. I should perhaps take more time to think before I post.

EDIT: This post Is the global economy a Ponzi scheme expresses some of what I was thinking in a much more developed manner. (via Lloyd on AIM)

I’m not posting this on the TCM Blog yet because this is just public musing.

I wanted to do something with Top Web Comics, but I don’t think it’s necessary. I’m not going to get enough out of it compared to the effort that I put into it. I’m not going to get visits from that site unless I’m way up at the tippy-top. However, if I’m already at the top, then I’ve already got enough fans, and I’ll be happy with that. Perhaps later on, I could shoot for something, and maybe increase my base through that venue, but I just don’t think it’s useful now. I’m not going to put my effort into encouraging people to vote. However, I’m probably going to continue with the voting incentive because it’s good to have at least a tiny buffer.

I had this idea to put the latest post of the blog on my comic. I guess the idea was to get more people to read the TCM Blog. I’m not sure what purpose this will serve. In fact, it seems to me that the TCM Blog just isn’t that important overall when it comes to the comic.

What are my goals? Well, the main goal is to produce a great comic. Yes, this is first and foremost. Second, the goal is to make money. While this has always been a possibility for me, it’s never been a priority for me. But I’m about to graduate, and I don’t have a job yet, so I’m thinking about money. Another goal may be to increase the readership, but I don’t think that’s a great goal in and of itself.

So back to the money thing. I put ads, but they’re not making much money. This isn’t very surprising. I mean, the ads that are up there aren’t things that my readers are probably looking for.

Merchandising is the real thing I need to work on if I want to make money. All my other tiny projects are fun, but they aren’t going to help me make progress towards my goal. In fact, it seems like I work on all these projects in order to avoid working on this harder, unfamiliar project.

The other project that looks exciting is adding “tags” to the comic. I think this is worthwhile. Sometimes I enjoy hitting the random button to look at old comics. I want a different way to go through my archive. If there’s a way to browse by theme, I think people will use that.

I want to use the social networking to build some type of community, but I just don’t really know how to use facebook or myspace. One thing I will continue to do is spam my friends to get them to join my fan page on facebook.

Facebook is changing the way pages look, so that they’re more like profiles. This just confuses me more. I’m not sure what to think of the change. I have a feeling I may abuse it, e.g. changing my status every 5 seconds. We’ll see.

Oh shit oh shit oh shit…

Arctic summer ice could vanish by 2013

Who the fuck blasts loud music at 7:00 in the morning?

Not a rhetorical question. The answer is some asshole in my apartment building.

I don’t even understand it. It’s fucking 7:00 on Friday MORNING. This is not some late night party. If it’s 3:00AM, I’m pissed but not puzzled. If this was some type of morning routine, then by this time of the year, I would’ve already hunted the person down and strangled him/her.

But what cold, cruel whim possesses a person to play loud music on a certain Friday at 7AM, when I am already sleep-deprived as it is?

I’ve very puzzled by the Republican definition of tyranny.

Suspension of habeas corpus = not tyranny
Torture = not tyranny
Unitary executive = not tyranny

But…

Raising taxes on rich people = tyranny

Yeah, now let’s throw a tea party!

Then again, maybe working ahead isn’t so bad. I thought today would be stressful. In reality, working ahead meant I had very little to do today. Thus, today was not very stressful at all. If I had procrastinated more, then today would have been stressful. So one point for working ahead. But my weekend did suck, so procrastination wins on that count.

Procrastination is so much better than working early. Here I am, with two papers and a presentation due this week. I worked slowly through the weekend, instead of with the intense focus of last minute panic. I’ve got an ugly draft of one paper, an ugly draft of the outline for my presentation (okay, not so ugly), and nothing for the other paper.

Normally, I’m stressed. Now, I’m stressed and worn out from the weekend. Fuck not procrastinating.

I admonished myself not to play the numbers game. I’m counting fans for the Chalkboard Manifesto fan page on facebook. I super-hyped that I’m getting close to 100, even though these arbitrary numbers count for nothing.

I’m convincing myself that this is all worth it because I’m pimping my comic to people I normally don’t pimp it to. New fans = a good thing.

Nonetheless, I have to remember that my main goal is to make an excellent comic, not collect fans.

In January, I declared that I was going to take TCM to new heights. Let’s chronicle some of the cool things that have happened:

• I added a ShareThis buton. Now people can share comics via their social networking accounts. They can post the latest comic in a MySpace bulletin or on their facebook wall. I use it to post on facebook, and I often get comments on my comics.
• I have not missed a day of updating, except one vacation day. I have 9 vacation days left for the comic.
• Voting incentives are back. This requires me to constantly keep a buffer of at least one day.
• I put advertising on the main page, the blog, and the RSS feed. I haven’t made much money yet, but I still have a lot of experimenting to do with Google Adsense.
• I changed my MySpace account to a more secure one. I am currently using this account to promote my comics. I posted the latest comic as a bulletin and received several comments.
• I created a fan page for TCM on facebook. Last I checked, I have 69 fans. Thanks a lot to Lloyd for help with promotion!
• I got linked by Pharyngula for my “spiritual but not religious” comic. I also had a huge spike of traffic in the beginning of January because of reddit, for my “to that guy at the party” comic.
• I signed up for a Google Analytics account, which is giving me much more detailed statistics than my current sources for website statistics.
• I made several back-end changes to the code that serves up the comic. As a result, it’s easier to modify things.
• I fixed an issue with 404s redirecting to the home page. (But now I need to make sure the blog has its own 404 page.)
• The quality of my comics is better. I spend much more time and attention making them. In retrospect, there are some I don’t like, but overall, I’m especially proud of my body of work since January.

Of course, none of this would’ve happened without the support and the love of my fans. Yes, the LOVE! YOU ALL LOVE ME, DON’T YOU???

Wow, I really need to start looking for a job…

I’ve lived my life at a leisurely pace for years. Senior year of high school was excrutiatingly long. College has been slow, but with quick tempo summers. Now, I feel as if life is about to speed up. My time here will be over before I know it, and I need to get cracking on the job search now. Of course, by now I mean after this next week where I have two papers and a presentation due. After that, the next crisis will happen and before you know it, I will be a hobo. Ugh.

During my last programming project, we were doing some fairly complicated stuff. It involved neural networks and image recognition. As the philosophy major, I decided that I would do a lot of the writing for the group. The problem was that I initially had no idea what was going on.

My friend sent me a link to the papers of the guy who created the algorithm we were going to parallelize. I was presented with a choice: Read a 7 page paper, or watch a 45 minute lecture.

Sometimes, the lecture is a more effective use of your time. When I tried to read the paper, it made no sense. I didn’t have a framework with which to understand it. It’s like reading Kant with no philosophical background and no glossary. To truly comprehend it would’ve taken hours. It was actually much quicker to watch the lecture, where the guy was explaining it to an audience without experience in this exact problem. The lecture was very illuminating. Thus, it was quicker to watch the entire lecture than to read a very short paper.

This isn’t always the case. Some people are terrible writers and some are terrible speakers. Still, the lesson is that you can learn a lot from lectures, and sometimes you can learn more than you can from reading. Especially in technical papers, the writer will assume knowledge that the speaker will take pains to explicate. Since we have the wonderful world of YouTube and other video sites, watching a lecture isn’t limited to buying a video (DVD — what?) or finding a professor.

With that in mind, I’m going to post more videos. They’ll usually be things I’ve already watched, but which I’ve found useful.

Here’s one such video:
(h/t quad)

I loved this quote: “The core skill of innovators is error-recovery, not failure-avoidance.” I also liked the analogy of improvisation to the creative process, namely accepting and adding to what someone else has rather than shutting them down. Another lesson to take away was that I should focus more on being interested than being an interesting person.

As I approach my 22nd birthday, which is tomorrow, this idea has been weighing heavily in my mind:

“In like manner we are told, that when [Julius Caesar] was in Spain, he bestowed some leisure hours on reading part of the history of Alexander, and was so much affected with it, that he sat pensive a long time, and at last burst into tears. As his friends were wondering what might be the reason, he said, “Do you think I have not sufficient cause for concern, when Alexander, at my age, reigned over so many conquered countries, and I have not one glorious achievement to boast?” — Plutarch’s Lives

The idea isn’t that in 22 years, I’ve done nothing, but that I have not one glorious achievement to boast. I hope to change this with my current work on The Chalkboard Manifesto.

Maybe I’ve been thinking about glory so much because of my class on the Roman Republic. It feels like an antiquated concept in the era of self-esteem and personal happiness. I know that I can sleep on the floor and be happy. As long as I have food and friends to share that food with, I will be happy. However, that is not the path to glory.

I used to write off this urge as a narcissistic craving for fame. Fame is not the same as glory, though. Paris Hilton is famous. There is nothing glorious about her life.

No, I want by my 23rd birthday to have some claim to a small glory. I want an accomplishment I can look back on, and proudly say, “I did this.” And I want the average spectator to be touched by incredulity, to question whether I really could have done such a thing.

Things I’m reading:

On Project Runway being off the air: They Couldn’t Make It Work

Because at that point we were getting desperate. At that point we were realizing that, without “Project Runway’s” inane challenges to discuss (professional lady wrestlers? Seriously?), we literally had nothing to talk about with most of our co-workers. At that point we saw we had built entire relationships with people upon doing nothing but yelling “MAKE IT WORK!” across the cafeteria.

On the economic crisis: Laissez-Faire Capitalism Has Failed

There is the failure of ideas–such as the “efficient market hypothesis,” which deluded its believers about the absence of market failures such as asset bubbles; the “rational expectations” paradigm that clashes with the insights of behavioral economics and finance; and the “self-regulation of markets and institutions” that clashes with the classical agency problems in corporate governance–that are themselves exacerbated in financial companies by the greater degree of asymmetric information. For example, how can a chief executive or a board monitor the risk taking of thousands of separate profit and loss accounts? Then there are the distortions of compensation paid to bankers and traders.

On the prison system crisis: Five myths about prison growth dispelled

Given that, what’s the most cost-effective prison reform strategy? We need to stop admitting many minor offenders, even if they’re serving only short sentences. We need to focus less on high-profile drug statutes and more on the ways small-fry drug convictions cause later crimes to result in longer sentences. Once we start admitting fewer people to prison, we should shift money from prisons to police. If this seems like tinkering, rather than a sweeping fix, that’s because it is. See Myth No. 4: Reformers shouldn’t waste their breath trying to turn us into Europe.

The idea that Michael Phelps was forced by his sponsors to apologize to the Chinese people, just because he smoked some pot, is ridiculous.

Imagine a different Michael Phelps. Imagine if he had rejected the sponsors who demanded self-immolation. What if he had called a press conference and unapologetically said, “I did nothing wrong.”

When we’ve got more people in jail than any other country, there’s something wrong with that, not with pot-smoking. The War on Drugs is a tremendous waste of money. California’s prisons are overcrowded, while we also face budget problems.

Imagine if Michael Phelps had said that we need to legalize marijuana. Imagine if he had called an end to this ridiculous prohibition. That would’ve been inspiring. Not 8 gold medals inspiring, but inspiring in a different way.

Instead, we have him prostrated and apologetic. And the farce continues.

It might be fun to study mass extinctions. I might find some lessons that can be used in different debates.

I’ve noticed that I win Risk more often when I don’t play to the end. If victory is declared between 2 or 3 people, then I’m more likely to win than if I have to continue to fight. Part of it is a failure to plan to the end. Once people start getting knocked out, I fail to see how the balance of power has shifted. Sure, I may get someone’s cards, but now a check on a different player has been eliminated. Besides my personal failings, however, there is simply the fact that when only one person can win, then only one person does so. If more people can win, then you’re simply more likely to win.

Last time I played Risk, my friend decried permanent alliances. He said they weren’t fair. This seems to suggest that permanent alliances have a lot of power. There’s also the time I played Risk with my friends where we were allowed to barter for cards, and two of my friends used a rather novel strategy. One friend simply gave the other all his cards. I had a lot of problems with that alliance, and eventually only won because we declared a joint victory at the end. It’s perceived as unfair only because a permanent alliance is so powerful that it’s really difficult to take out.

I had nothing of the sort in the last game of Risk I played, but I did have two alliances that lasted throughout the game (and we played to a three-way tie). At the very endgame, my life was threatened. The weakest player (Enemy) on the board was trying to bargain with my partner (Partner) to the West. Then, there was my friend in Australia (Friend) who was also rather weak. There was a choice: Either Partner took out Enemy, or Partner tried to take out Friend and then weaken me. Afterwards, Enemy would take out me. A lot of talking went on.

In Risk, I generally appeal to self-interest. There was an interesting appeal to self-interest that involved virtue, however. Throughout the game, I had been pressured to betray my Partner, and my partner had been pressured to betray me. I refused to betray my Partner. (This was mostly because it wasn’t going to serve my best interests at the time; if you can’t completely destroy your “friend”, you should think especially hard before you betray them.) Because of my loyalty, my partner never betrayed me. Well, that, and the troops I placed that would make his life difficult. (Another common negotiating tactic is to say that all we’ll do is fight each other, which will allow everyone else to gobble us up.)

During the course of the game, Enemy had earlier noted that we were approaching the endgame and alliances wouldn’t mean much. I used this statement against him in the final negotiation. I told Partner that Enemy had pretty much guaranteed that he would betray you. Do not trust him.

I’m not going to say that this argument persuaded Partner because there were many other arguments, and I can’t purport to know Partner’s thought-processes. Still, I think it’s an illustration of how you can use virtue as a weapon. A person is more likely to enter into an agreement with someone they can trust instead of someone they cannot trust. You can breed distrust, and get them to agree to your bargain rather than your opponent’s bargain.

I’m not going to say this is profound or anything, but I hadn’t previously realized how virtue can be viewed through this instrumental lense.

That being said, it’s not an ironclad law that one would enter into an agreement with a trustworthy person versus an untrustworthy person. It really does depend on your own self-interest. Some people really stress self-interest versus virtue. You can use that to your advantage to isolate them when it comes to alliance building. However, if that person has way more to offer than you do, then you may not have any bargaining power. It doesn’t matter that the dog will betray them later because it would serve someone’s interests now.

I think it’s best not to use the loyalty argument as your only card, but when put together with other arguments, it does help. It may even tip the scale if you’re at a slight disadvantage in terms of what you can offer.

Anyway, I’m going to think more about Risk and the power of alliances and virtue. Maybe I’ll come up with an interesting style of play I can share later.

I find it’s a good exercise to think to yourself, “What’s the worst that could happen?” Then, you quantify it and your fear subsequently subsides. This is an entirely unoriginal line of thought, and I think I first saw it in Tim Ferriss’s book.

In any case, I applied it last semester when it looked as if there was a 0% chance that my classmates and I would turn in our final project on time. I did some mental calculation and figured the worst thing that could happen would be failing the class. Even with that, I could take an extra class the next semester and still graduate. I actually checked my transcript and realized that I could graduate, even without taking the extra class. It allowed me to stay calm. Really, you work better when you stay calm. It’s impossible to work when you panic. Even when people note that they do their best work under pressure, it’s not because of panic. It’s because the time constraint forces them to focus, and they drive everything else from their mind.

I recently published my fears about taking TCM more seriously, and I realized that they were all rather silly.

I’ve started to use the scenarios of others to practice this exercise. What if I was in their “crisis” scenario? Would things really be as bad as the person makes it out to be? Is it the end of the world? I think in my head: What’s the rational solution? What are the rational consequences? When you’re not dealing with yourself, it’s much easier to separate the emotions that cause you to catastrophize and see the problem more clearly.

In conjunction with defining fears and looking for solutions, I like to look on the bright side of things. For example, when the airlines lost my baggage, I thought, “Yeah, this sucks, but at least I have an excuse to buy new clothes. I really need new clothes anyway.” From this, it’s an easy step to also count your blessings. “Well, at least it was only my bags that got lost in Chicago and not me. I’m home for Christmas, with my family. Good thing I’m not in some random place, and I have a family to come home to. I love my family.”

Now, combine this with putting yourself in others’ shoes. When you analyze someone else’s problem, eventually you get back into your own shoes. Take a look at your own problems.

I just did this. I have a lot of problems, but they all seem so trivial. I’m really blessed to be in the situation I am in now.

On the shuttle ride back from the mall, I talked with a former classmate of mine. He thought I was a Computer Science major. We discussed the internet and identity fraud.

In my Roman Republic class, I talked with a different former classmate. She thought I was a political science major. We had taken a course on Machiavelli together. We discussed history.

An old high school classmate thought I would do something with politics and the world. She never would have imagined me being a philosophy major or teaching.

One of my uncles always tells me that I look like a professor.

I recently had lunch with my friend, and she noticed how The Chalkboard Manifesto touches on a broad variety of subjects. I said it probably had to do with all the different classes I’ve taken. Upon reflection, I think it says something about my identity. My interests are wide, so my art reflects that.

For some reason, I’m really proud that it’s hard to put me into one category. I want to live my life such that I am very hard to define. I didn’t realize until now that I had a pretty good start.

I hate my last entry. It sounds affected. Blech.

I’m working on something new. It will be a series of short dialogues based on the post-its I’ve accumulated over the years. I wonder if I have enough for something substantive.

1) He’s very smart, but he’s also very stupid.

2) He’s very clever, but he’s also very stupid.

I contend that statement 1 can be interpreted in a way that makes sense. Statement 2, by contrast, makes no sense at all.

Am I right? It probably depends on what connotations you attach to the words “clever” and “smart.”

I equate “smart” with the kind of person who’d score high on an IQ test, and I equate “clever” with the cunning Odysseus. Now, “cunning” has a connotation of deceitfulness. Temporarily step aside from your moral predilections, and you see that the clever person has an understanding of the human mind that the smart person does not. We know geniuses who can’t relate to people. This person is incapable of deception because he can’t get inside another’s mind and figure out how that other person would react. The clever person understands people and knows how to get them to do what he wants.

Can the clever person be stupid? Yes, perhaps. Let’s remember the example of the fox who fell into the well. He tricked the goat into getting him back out, leaving the goat stuck in the well.

The clever person may be tremendously wrong, but he can sway others more easily, and is flexible enough to recover from his mistakes. A smart person relies on his abstractions to get through the world, while the clever person relies on also understanding people. We deal with people in the world, not abstractions.

The lesson? Clever people are more dangerous than those that are merely smart.

I slogged through over 200 pages of reading today. Yup, I’m back in school alright.

Despite prayers, God forsakes Kurt Warner. In perhaps the most bizarre event of the game, God made a personal appearance and said, “I don’t give a shit about your football game. Stop praying to me on game day.”