Author Archives: Shawn R. McDonald

New Card Game

All this glorious time to update and I just dilly-dallied and did nothing. Oh well. I didn’t have to study much today because I have English and band as my finals tomorrow. For English, I have a timed write, so I can’t study for that. We already did our band final with the seniors (who left a week early). I’m over halfway done with my finals. 5/8. Done: Band, Jazz, Moral Theology, French, and PE. Still left: English, AP Bio, Math.

I made up a new card game. I’ll describe it later. It might need a bit more refining. I’m getting into playing cards again because I’ve had more free time after finals. I’ll also have tons of free time on BART.

I think I’m going to continue a little with the topic of immortality tomorrow.

Oh, and Ian is officially my #1 fan for my weblog. He probably almost has as many comments as everyone else combined. Heh. Maybe you should think about getting your own weblog Ian. You could probably get some stuff at Moveable Type and then install it on your Fat Kid Running domain name. We could converse/debate in a non-comment form.

Immortality

This is actually a semi-reply to an entry written by Josh. The main jumping point I’m using is this statement, “I have my friends, who stay with me after death, and carry my memory after I die.  I am immortal, and I grant them immortality.” Brace yourselves, this oughta be really cynical…

Do your friends really give you immortality? How many of you know your great great grandparents names, let alone the names of their friends? For those who do know, it’s most likely that one of these two cases apply to them: 1) they do a lot of genealogy, or 2) one of their great great grandparents was famous.

Interesting thing about fame: people remember it. I can name generals who fought in the civil war, but I can’t name my relatives who were living at that time. Some of those people looking to secure fame, or infamy, even, have made their place in history. They live on. They have the kids doing reports on them. All that’s left of some of your relatives is their genetic contributions.

Now that we live in a digital age, you can whip out pictures and videos. But once all the people who were personally there are gone, who’s going to remember the context of a picture? Who’s going to remember that time Bill shot milk out his nose? Etcetera. Memories die quickly. The things that stick out are what we deem historically important.

Ah, but I completely skipped over video. Video can provide a way for context to live on. Memories, voice, and more can live on. Yet, what’s more entertaining? Old home movies, or war/historical documentaries? Okay, maybe some of you will pick the former, but many will honestly pick the latter. Over time, though, the old home movies lose relevance. Memories begin to die.

Eventually, your friends die, and memories of you die with them. It’s a sad truth. Those who touch more, through so-called historically important events, will be the ones remembered. And it doesn’t matter whether they were “good” or “bad.”

There is one thing I missed that can preserve memories best, and it’s been around the longest: writing. Diaries and the like are excellent primary sources that provide a sense of how it was like to live during a certain period in history, or even a more recent period of time. Think of how much the diary of Anne Frank (spelling, name?) sold. Even now, I’m doing this with this weblog. Look at the new culture building up around these. Writing can highlight important moments and make things less dull than a home movie. Most people’s naturally semi-voyeuristic nature will make them interested in this sort of thing.

Yet, there’s so much writing that much of it is lost and dies. Again, the memories die. How many autobiographies of ordinary people are kids writing reports on? Also, the memories seem only to be useful to gauge a certain period of time, or different events taking place, and it’s not really about the person.

So in the end, it seems only the famous get their “immortality.” Fear not: Eventually, they die too. Smaller celebrities are lost quickly. Even kings are forgotten. Time kills all. Even the most important will eventually die when the universe itself dies. There is no such thing as true immortality.

BS

BS is a very fun game. I’m going to work on strategies and sleight of hand tricks over the summer to make myself the ultimate master of that game. I had this guy who was undefeated beat, but then he quit before he was beaten. He stalled until we had to get off the bus. GRAH!

Tomorrow: blog on “immortality”

SAT II Bio: Blah

I didn’t get to go to the ATDP orientation today because I had to take the SAT II: Biology test. I actually got a test that was fairly easy for a change. The AP Biology exam took 3 hours, and had an essay portion. This one was only 1 hour long. There are two sections you can choose E for ecology and M for molecular. I can’t really see too much of a difference between the two. I chose E because easy starts with an E. I knew most of the test, and even with the stuff I didn’t know, I was able to reduce my choices enough that I had a good chance of getting the answer.

I hardly studied at all. Friday is my unofficial “Sabbath,” my day of rest. I don’t do any work on Fridays. EVAR! (spelled intentionally with an A) I’m already burned out with bio from the whole crappy AP Bio course, and the earlier AP Bio test. From practice tests I took way before, I know I’m going to get at least a 700. Just a question of how much over.

Eating somehow gives people an “unfair advantage” when testing. Can anyone tells me how this works? Are you going to encode the answers in your alphabet soup or something? Maybe people will smell it, get hungry, and can’t test properly. Whatever. I mention this because my friend was eating oatmeal before the test. I think it was cinammon apple… vital information, my readers.

Since I couldn’t go to orientation, I now have know idea if I need to do any HW, etc., for the class I’m taking. I also don’t know what I need for the class I’m going to TA. I’ll probably call the instructor tomorrow. Oh, fun thing happened with my classes. Introduction to Robotics changed its schedule. Before, the class I was TAing was on the same day. Now, I get to go to class 4x a week. Oh well. I’ll get a lot of stuff done on BART. Last time I planned TPV out a long way through. I even wrote down storylines that’ll probably last me a couple of years, if not longer.

Minesweeper Fakes?

People have posted comments in my Minesweeper King entry. My times have improved since then…

Expert: 130
Intermediate: 39
Beginner: 4

I’m still not Minesweeper King, but I’m better than everyone I know personally. Check out some crazy videos at http://metanoodle.com/minesweeper/. I’m not entirely convinced these are not all faked. Check out the 66 second one under Expert. Got a stopwatch? See for yourself that the seconds shown on the video don’t match with your stopwatch. At least on my computer, they don’t.

It’s got me thinking. One of my friends suggested that it would really be more likely to be real if they recorded themselves along with the computer. I’m gong to do that sometime this summer.

I’m also going to figure out how to fake one of those videos. The main gist of the idea is capturing with a slow framerate, then playing it back using a faster framerate. Then, make a movie of the timer and superimpose it. Then, edit out some extraneous movements.

Screenshots are way too easy to fake.

And when I hear people who say the first time they finished expert, they got 120 or something, I begin to wonder. Did they just get really good before doing expert? Or did they just have bad luck until finally finishing it? Or, *gasp*, could they be lying?

I bet there are people who are good, with really good times, not lying about it. But you have to have played for a long time. Think about it. To get a 1 second in beginner, you have to play a lot of times, meaning a long time, so that eventually you get a good board that arises through chance. The same applies to intermediate and expert. It also takes a long time before you can click efficiently and recognize and act on patterns.

I’ve noticed Minesweeper times aren’t exactly correct. Remember that whole, when does the new millenium start fiasco? Right when you click, it starts at one second! Your times are offset by that much. Don’t worry, I’ll still post as is shown on the high score list.

Oh yeah, and I won’t forget to work on my best times. Good job with your times, those who left comments.

Palpable Summer

Oh, I can feel it in the air. It’s the general feeling of summer. It’s hard to explain; I just feel it. As the school year nears its end, I can feel a difference. It’s been especially heightened since the seniors left today. The feeling didn’t start until last week. Every other day was simple drudgery.

Now, however, now I have a sense of what seems to be happiness. No, better than happiness: freedom. I keep thinking, “Don’t get your hopes up; there’s still some time left to serve,” but I can’t help it. Hope. Freedom. Happiness.

People always says the year goes by too fast. I don’t. It goes by slowly for me. I’m still half-expecting more drudgery, but summer is actually here. It felt like it would never end, but it’s finally here.

Actually, I think my perception of time has been shifted since Sept. 11, 2001. Before then, I’ve mostly felt time was going just fine. That year, I had trouble remembering the order of what had happened over the year, because Sept. 11 seemed so not long ago, yet it had happened in the beginning of the school year. Ever since then, I’ve never quite felt the same about time and its relative speed of passing for me. I dunno, maybe I’m just weird.

In any case, I can’t wait for summer to get here.

Verizon Forced to Give Up Names

Read all about it, court forces Verizon to give up names of two people to the RIAA. Anyone else scared by this? The RIAA doesn’t need any proof. All they have to do is say that they suspect you of stealing files and they can get all your information. That’s like if you thought someone had stolen something from you, so you simply went and searched through their office or home, and it was legal.

I guess the greedy record industry isn’t aware of something called the 4th amendment: “The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated, and no Warrants shall issue, but upon probable cause, supported by Oath or affirmation, and particularly describing the place to be searched, and the
persons or things to be seized.” The courts aren’t either.

The EFF puts a succinct point out. If you haven’t already, join the Electronic Frontier Foundation; they’re out there to protect our digital rights. Keep yourself informed on these issues.

Wretched Little Kids

Little kids are not the cutest things in the universe. They are gross little creatures that drip from every orifice. It’s true. Clingy beasts that you can never take your eyes off, or they’ll go do something you’ll regret. Sapping every single moment of attention and energy. Horrible little buggers.

I’m utilizing hyperbole, but kids are very demanding, especially when they can’t fully talk. How do people get anything done when they are around? Maybe when I’m older, I’ll change my opinion, but as of now, I’m never going to have kids.

The true reason people want kids is to propagate their genes. It’s what humans are programmed to do. People want a little piece of immortality — a part of them living on. Society seems to have brainwashed us that family is the greatest thing and that should be one’s goal in life. Movies, songs, and other media all do this. This is an intro to a bunch of topic that I can discuss (with myself)… the messages movies try to convey, the messages songs try to convey, “immortality,” and the reason why people encourage others to propagate different genes. Let’s see how much on-topic I can stay as the week progresses.

Effect of Violence in Video Games

I’m posting an essay I wrote for english. I actually have another essay due tomorrow which I’ve done nothing on, and it’s already 10 o’clock. Whee!

What is the Effect of Violence in Video Games?

Heads being blasted apart by sawed-off shotguns with the accompanying blood flying all over the place is just another scene in many video games. Critics of violence in video games claim that these video games cause kids and adults to become desensitized to violence and their nature to be more aggressive and violent. They even go so far as to say that a video game caused the Columbine school shooting in 1999. If this were true, the widespread influence of video games with violence can and will cause many more deaths in the future. However, there are also those who defend video games, stating that people know video games do not represent reality and thus would not imitate what is happening. Despite their rising realism, evidence points to video games not causing violence and have been shown to be helpful rather than detrimental.

No substantial correlation between video games and violence has ever been demonstrated in a laboratory or real life setting. In “Virtual Violence and Real Aggressiveness; Is There a Correlation?” by Marc Saltzman, it quotes a figure offered by the FBI’s Unified Crime Report that says, “violent crime has decreased by almost 20 percent between 1991-97, and juvenile violence is down 40 percent from 1993-1997 just as video games sales became the fastest-growing segment of the American entertainment industry” (1). Clearly, if video games were causing violence, there would be an increase in juvenile violence. An increasing number of kids would have been adversely affected by an increasing amount of video games available. These kids would have contributed to an increase in violent crimes, if there were a link. Video games cannot be causing any rise in violent behavior because there is no rise in violent behavior. Additionally, violence is not dependent on a game, because “video games and computers are not inherently positive or negative; like all technology, they are neutral. Their effects depend on how they are used” (Saltzman 2). Video games cannot be inherently evil, as are things such as genocide. They do not cause violence, only the people playing them can. Any normal person can distinguish between real violence and video game violence and their subsequent consequences. Violent tendencies are in the mind before the video games are played; video games do not teach violence.

Video games can serve as a tool for education, not violence. An article titled “Center’s Study Shows Video Games Can Be Beneficial” by Edward Chiao cites that “avid computer gamers showed higher levels of visual attention and spatial representation than non-gamers — skills necessary in today’s science and technology world” (1). In only focusing on violence within video games, the opposition fails to see the inherent benefits. Evidence between video games and learning has been readily linked, while the link with violent behavior is still insubstantial. Video games have been shown to have more good than bad. This applies to all games, not just games that are considered “educational.” Moreover, Kurt Squire in “Cultural Framing of computer/Video Games” cites another study where, “[i]n 1985, Mitchell gave Atari 2600 consoles to twenty families and found that most families used the game systems as a shared play activity. Instead of leading to poor school performance, increased family violence, or strained family interactions, video games were a positive force on family interactions” (2-3). This information touts video games while also disproving violent behavior as a result in video games. More studies could show even more convincingly how video games can help all members of families, which would further prove the benefit of video games. Again, there was no special emphasis on the games being deemed “educational;” the system itself helped families. The article also goes on to say: “[D]rawing analogies between symbolic representations in the game and their real-life analogs is one of active interpretation, and suggests that students might benefit from systematic explanations or presentations of information. In similar research in anchored instruction and problem-based learning environments, John Bransford and colleagues have found that students perform best when given access to lectures in the context of completing open-ended complex problem solving tasks” (Squire 5-6). Those who oppose violence in video games completely disregard the fact that video games can be used to teach kids how violence is wrong. Game players drawing analogies between real life and video games know that what happens in the video games is fantasy and would know not to do that in real life. Energy used for criticizing video games because of their violence, which is not even related to real-life violence, would be better used by providing resources to help use video games as a learning tool. Indeed, children occupied with games and education will be less likely to commit a crime.

Violence is becoming increasingly realistic in video games, but this, and other arguments put forth by the opposition, still fails to establish a clear causal correlation between the two. Researchers asked college students to play either Wolfenstein 3D, a violent game, or Myst, a non-violent game, then were told to punish opponents with noise blasts, and the researches found that “those who had played the violent game tended to use longer noise bursts” (Saltzman 1). However, this statement is unshakably refuted by the fact that the difference in bursts was .16 seconds (Squire 2). Certainly, a difference of a mere .16 seconds does not constitute a substantial augmentation in aggressive behavior. The difference is so small that it could even go the other way if the experiment were repeated again with more people. Eugene F. Provenzo Jr., in his article “Violence in Video Games is a Serious Problem,” states, “[G]ames that employ a first-person shooter model represent a significant step beyond the tiny cartoon figures that were included in Mortal Kombat in the mid-1990s. In fact, there has been a continuous evolution of the realism of these games as computing power has increased and become cheaper” (3). It is irrefutable that the violence in video games is becoming more real. Yet, since there is not causal link, the level of violence in video games is irrelevant. The principle of realism is not only applied to violence, but to other aspects of the game, such as more intelligent reactions by enemies. Increasing realism is a technique employed to make a game more fun. Dave Grossman, with his article “Violent Video Games Teach Children to Enjoy Killing,” makes an argument that “individuals that law enforcement agents face are ever-more trained, ever-better qualified, and they are concerned that children have their own private police-quality firearms training sitting in the arcade and they are able to play it” (3). Saying that video games produce better-qualified criminals is akin to saying racing video games can produce great NASCAR drivers. Furthermore, video game systems come packaged with controllers, not guns, and computers come with keyboards and mice. The objects commonly used to manipulate video games significantly differ too much from guns to possibly provide any increased gun-handling ability. Games and real life are completely different. Even if games were to help, those using video games as training tools would have figured this out beforehand, thus still invalidating the premise that it is the video games which cause violent behavior.

Evidence for correlations between violent behavior and video games have failed to show up, while evidence for correlations between learning and video games have shown up. Video games do contain violence. Yet, it cannot cause such a thing as a school shooting because there is no causal relationship. In fact, violence has gone down in recent years. There are those who are trying to say video games are wrong, but they themselves must be shown to be wrong. Otherwise, the benefits of video games, such as education, will never be fully realized. No half-truths, such as in the aforementioned study involving punishment times between different games, can ever disprove that video games do not cause violence.

Works Cited

Chiao, Edward. “Center’s Study Shows Video Games Can Be Beneficial.” South End 19 Mar. 2003. 22 May 2003 .

Grossman, Dave. “Violent Video Games Teach Children to Enjoy Killing.” Opposing Viewpoints Resource Center. Gale Databases. Infotrac. Moreau Catholic High School Lib. 22 May 2003 .

Provenzo, Eugene F., Jr. “Violence in Video Games Is a Serious Problem.” Opposing Viewpoints Resource Center. Gale Databases. Infotrac. Moreau Catholic High School Lib. 22 May 2003 .

Saltzman, Marc. “Virtual Violence and Real Aggressiveness: Is There Correlation.” Gannett News Service 20 June 2000. SIRS Researcher. SIRS Knowledge Source. Moreau Catholic High School Lib. 22 May 2003 .

Squire, Kurt. “Cultural Framing of Computer/Video Games.” Game Studies. 22 May 2003 .

Theology Project Video

I made a video for my Moral Theology class. It uses a fair amount of stop-motion animation. All the characters are Lego people. I hate prefacing things with negativity, but without the context of the project, this is a mediocre video. Since my project was about the “cardinal” virtues, wise judgment, wholeness, justice, and courage, and fulfilled all requirements, it should get an A. (Actually, these are the dumbed down cardinal virtues, because my book is pretty dumbed down.)

A couple of notes: I compressed the video a great deal for display on the web. It’s about 9 megabytes, and 9 minutes long. The image is really grainy and blurry due to this. The beginning words say, “In the far away land of Aidanac, a brutal war raged between the kingdoms of Scova Notia and Old Wunsbrick. It seemed neither side was gaining an advantage.” There’s also a map of Aidanac, which is really an upside-down reflection of Canada. The signs are all simple anti-war slogans, including an advertisement for “Psycho-ward.org” and the humorous “The King Smells.” The others say: War Hurts People, War is Bad, Stop the War, No War, and No More War.

I do all the voices. If you see me often, you can probably tell. If not, that’s why I’m putting up the information. The crowd scene is all me again, just 3 audio tracks. Some of the sound is glitchy. When I showed it during theology, it was really glitchy, to the point that I had to stop it. Luckily, my teacher’s letting me show it tomorrow. I fixed most of the glitches.

I’m going to reshoot most of this movie and adapt it into “Majestic, the Movie.” Majestic is a character in one of my comics, which also involves Lego people. Most of the plot will probably be changed, but the settings will remain the same.

This link may only be a limited time offer, and I may only open it up to email request only, later on, because this is a big drain on bandwith. If this happens, this entry will be edited to reflect that. Watch the movie. You will need Quicktime, which is free to download, if need be.

May Ends Today

Not much to say today, except that I hate babysitting. I don’t get why people think little kids are that great. More on that tomorrow.

May ends today, so that means tomorrow is a new month. I know I mentioned my comic earlier, but I’ll mention The Perfect Villain again, because they reset the votes for each new month. So, please vote. Advertisement is the easy way out when I’m tired and don’t want to type much.

Out of Context Awards: May 2003

Winner: “They took away my [trombone] bucket mute because they thought there was a bomb in it.” One of my fellow trombonists at Moreau put his metronome in his bucket mute, and left it in his locker. Somehow, the metronome went on, and some idiots thought it was a bomb. Haha! So they confiscated the bucket mute and wouldn’t give it back because it allegedly scared some people. We trombonists are oppressed peoples.

Runner-up: “Over here on the next page, we have some cleavage.” Only runner-up because it was not actually uttered. Just a thought when studying for the AP Bio test. Cleavage, AP Bio? What? Ah, cleavage is a stage in development when the zygote undergoes rapid cell divisions.

This next quote is only funny in context. “No one in my class would ever do something that stupid.” That was uttered by my AP Bio teacher, Ms. Gee. Let me give the backstory: My friend, Ryan, (yeah I’m giving names, so what) stuck a pin in an electrical socket. Then, he stuck another pin in the other socket, shocking himself at some point in the process. Then, he takes a metal probe (with a wooden handle) and presses it against both pins, completing the circuit. Big sparks! And he and his lab partner get a 0 on the lab and a Saturday detention. I believe he blew out a circuit breaker. He’s in the regular bio class (not because he’s stupid, but because he’s lazy). What makes what she said funny is the someone in her class did do that. (Now, I’m not naming names yet. Okay… Richard Philbin.) Richard stuck two probes in the electrical socket and then dropped the scissors on top of them. It sparked helluva high. I saw this; he was at the table behind mine. (Surprisingly enough, he’s not the first one to do this in that same class. Jason Fix also did it, but he used a different method.) Unlike Ryan, Richard did not get caught. Ms. Gee was just doing work at her desk, not noticing a thing. So, Richard relates the story to Ryan one day at lunch (along with his other adventures with electricity), and Ryan says that he has to try it. As you now know, he got in trouble. Oh, oblivious Ms. Gee, how I laugh at thee.

09/09/04 – EDIT: Originally, I didn’t have any names except for Ryan’s because he had already been caught. I figured it was safe now to put the names up.

Miscellany for May 2003

Delusions of Grandeur

I had big plans for my video project, but I’m running short on time, and it’s not coming out the way I had wanted it to. Before posting it on this site, I’m going to redo most of it, so the stop-motion looks better. I also need to get some other people to do voices because I did them all. Anyway, I’m just focusing on getting it done for tomorrow’s class.

Oh, Cruel Fates

When I have too much work, I hope for an earthquake, so that I don’t have to go to school. Well, every time I wish for an earthquake, the earthquake comes after I need it. Just today, there was a small quake after school. Oh well, none of the earthquakes are ever big enough for school to be cancelled anyway.

Comment

Someone left a comment under a very early entry titled, Homework Load, saying how it was useful in a debate. I’d like to say that I’m just a weblogger, and not a real authority on anything.

Ideas for Movies

I keep bouncing around these ideas for movies with my friends, and we never follow up with any of them. First we were going to do a movie-length comedy, then a drama, then a comedy again, then a musical, and then a short film. I don’t know when or if we’ll ever get any of this done. I like the musical idea the best.

Statistics About TPV on buzzComix

Right now, my comic, The Perfect Villain, is ranked #46 on the buzzComix top 100 list. The percentage of comics above mine that are pretty bad is most likely somewhere above 90%. (I could do a real check, later, when I’m not so tired.) Out of the sprite comics listed (with the button below the comic name), TPV is #10. I’m asking people to look through all the other sprite comics and tell me if any are better than mine. I doubt that many, if any, are better than my comic.

How can this problem be fixed? By going to TPV and clicking the vote button on the side. You can vote once a day. However, I’d just like it if people voted on Fridays, when I actually update the comic.

Yeah, so this is entry is basically one big advertisement for TPV. An entry on how the overwhelming majority of webcomics out there are crap is coming later.

Anecdotal Evidence for School’s Inferiority

As the year winds down this quarter (date-wise — work-wise it’s speeding up), my grades have actually been going up. Many people struggle to stay on task to keep grades up. I, on the other hand, don’t struggle with this. No, I’m not immune to the effects of laziness and procrastination. I don’t struggle because I am lazy. I’ve been doing less work and putting in less effort. I’ve gotten progressively less organized. Beginning of the year, I had separate subject binders with dividers. Now, I don’t use any dividers. The papers are lucky if they even get into the rings. In some classes, my book is my binder. I just stuff all the papers in the front. I’m becoming less of a so-called good student, but, on the whole, my grades are getting better!

For AP Bio, we have these crap study guides. I used to fret over these, especially when answers were nowhere to be found in our book. Now, I put less time into them and just put my best guess if I can’t figure it out and that’s the end of that. I was getting B’s on them for a while, and now I’m getting A’s. In English, I had the rough draft for a research paper due. I went into timed-write mode and got the thing done within a couple of hours. We were supposed to have four body paragraphs, but I couldn’t think what to put in a fourth body paragraph, so I cut it out. My teacher once-overed all our first drafts, and he didn’t find any big problems in mine. Hah! He said it looked good, and didn’t want me to tell him if I hardly spent any time on it. I laughed a little, but didn’t tell him.

Also in AP Biology, I used to study for tests the night before and pre-read the chapter before we went over it in class. My second-to-last test, I didn’t even read the chapter and I received an A. My latest test, I studied during lunch and I still got a B. Let’s see… should I a) study a bit and get a B… or b) study during the last minutes of lunch and still get a B… I’m going with choice b). Or, I suppose I could study a lot and get an A. Sure, like I’d put that much effort into it.

I’ve got theology HW due tomorrow but I’m not going to do it. I have a little thing called a late pass. The year is close to ending, so I figure, Why not use it now? The only thing I’m putting effort into is a certain theology project. But that’s a video project, and I’m having fun doing it. I’m using Legos and doing some stop-motion animation. I’ve got Jar Jar Binks in it, and a man-eating flying shark.

So, the moral of today’s blog is: Do less work. Get more lazy. Reap the benefits.

Hypocrisy

The site’s small redesign is finished.

This was coming sooner or later… the entry on hypocrisy.

I’ve called hypocrisy the ultimate form of stupidity. (At least, I think I did.) Is it really? Actually, there are two different types of hypocrisy. One type arises from ignorance and the other is intentional.

People are good at ignoring themselves. They never take a step back and observe themselves. Thus, they can have blatant faults which they never realize. So, hypocrisy comes in when they say they oppose something, but are actually doing the very thing they oppose. An example would be a chronic liar who says that s/he hates people who are always lying. Hm, maybe I should take a look at myself before going around criticizing hypocrites.

Why would someone be intentionally hypocritical? For personal gain. Society encourages people to be honest, so that it’s easier to live together. Now, a person can lie and cheat the system, ending up on top (case in point, certain politicians). However, if everyone were to lie, it wouldn’t work. Everyone would be suspicious of each other and one wouldn’t gain too much from lying. So, I could tell people not to lie, when I’m lying myself, so I can gain from lying, but I don’t have to worry about others lying to me. Another example would be between two siblings and one computer. Sibling A could tell Sibling B that Sibling B uses the computer too much. Sibling A does this to discourage Sibling B from using the computer. This allows Sibling A to use up that free time that Sibling B used to take up. (No, this isn’t me disguising names. I have too many computers, and all of them are networked, in my house to fight over one.)

I’d say the second type is not stupidity, but intelligence — a pragmatic intelligence with no moral considerations. Hypocrisy, of the first sort, seems to be only one type of stupidity that arises from human nature. It’s not the “ultimate form of stupidity.” The definition of hypocrisy would make it seem so, but it’s only a form of “lack of information.” I’d say, there is no ultimate form of stupidity.

Small Site Redesign

Changed the colors a little bit, and some formatting all around to make this blog a little more personalized. I’ve got it almost the way I want it; there’s still a little bit of messing around I have to do with the archive pages.

Going with a little shades of grey theme here… It could be symbolic. Shades of grey. Grey area in philosophy. I don’t know. I just think it looks rather nice.

After this, and once summer starts, I’ll be working on the design for agnoiology.com, which is not up yet.

School Makes People Sick

School is making people sick — literally.

Kids are encouraged not to miss school. I’ve even heard teachers and administrators tell students to go to school even if just a little sick, especially during testing periods. According to my school handbook, a student can miss no more than 7 days per semester for any one class, otherwise the student will receive no credit for that class. Granted, being on an alternating day schedule makes that a little more bearable, but still… This applies to excused absences. Band activities during the school day count for this. Thus, kids that are sick are coming to school. And they are transmitting the disease to other students. Everyone gets sick! Hooray!

Okay, that’s a pretty weak argument, but I’ve got a (somewhat) better one… Schools are not that happy of a place. They give a lot of work and that creates a lot of stress. I’ve noticed that a bunch of tests, projects, etcetera are always assigned at the same time by every class, with a lull in between these busy times. Since the biggest assignments are assigned at the same time, students are very busy. This unnecessary busyness (unnecessary because it seems teachers intentionally assign all projects at the same time) creates a lot of stress. Stress weakens the immune system, making them more prone to getting sick from all those kids who should have stayed home, but couldn’t. (Maybe that argument wasn’t better.)

Okay, I think I am just too sick of school figuratively, so I have to make up a whole bunch of junk describing how schools makes kids sick literally.

Meaning of Life

This is actually the first time I’ve missed updating for two days in a row. I’m still rather tired, so I’m only going to talk about the meaning of life today.

Quite simply, according to my worldview, there is no meaning of life. Life is just a natural product of the universe. It serves no superior purpose.

One could make an argument that the purpose of life is to reproduce. That’s what evolution has programmed us to do. However, I don’t view that as a purpose. It’s a natural happening that occured because it allows life to continue. It’s almost like saying that the purpose of life is to live.

Maybe the meaning of life being to live is not so ridiculous a statement. Even the religious can agree with this. Christians think that life is precious because it is God’s creation. So would the meaning of life be to live in order to use the most precious gift?

Still, I want to go deeper than this semi-circular meaning. Why do I want to continue to live? Once death occurs, I can’t do anything anymore. So, I want to continue living in order to experience things. What sort of things? Everything, perhaps.

If you had to choose only one emotion to experience for the rest of your life, what would you choose? Chances are, you chose happiness. There are some more creative answers, such as surprise or comfort, but these are derivatives of happiness. And those who chose surprise (or who are now thinking it’s a cool choice) should be more specific. Embarrased surprise, angry surprise (such as that of discovery a spouse cheating), or maybe… happy surprise? Could someone possibly choose to be sad or angry for the rest of their lives?

What’s the point of living if you’re not happy? Going back to what I said earlier about experiencing everything, I think experiencing other emotions allows you to appreciate happiness more, just as tragedies can teach us to value human lives more.

Thus, I think the meaning of life is to be happy. Now it’s only a question of what makes people happy.

What to Do With Power

Throughout my life, I’ve contemplated what I would do with power: good or evil. Would I make everyone prosper, or suffer? From a strictly moral viewpoint, it would seem that good would be the obvious choice. Some think that the difficultly arises only once one has power and can no longer resist evil intentions..

The reason power tends to lead to greater evil is that with greater power comes less punishment. There’s less of a chance of retribution. Morality is based on justice. If there’s no chance of justice being brought to you, then you simply won’t care.

But, still, what would be the reason to commit evil? Just because you can? That doesn’t seem like good enough of an answer. Perhaps it arises from the need for more power. One way to “gain” power is to make it so everyone else has less power. The more people suffering then, the more power it seems like you have. This is only reinforced by what is mentioned in the previous paragraph.

Some could argue that you would get more power by having everyone prosper. As others prosper, the actions reciprocate. Which country had more money, the US, or the USSR?

In a very finite amount of time (life is a finite amount of time), I think both can produce the same results in the mind. It comes to a preference within the person before attaining power. Which goal do they want beforehand? They’ll go for the choice which will make it seem as if they are getting more power.

Which one would I choose? Evil. I feel as if more power lies in the so-called evil path. With good, you’re still a slave to everyone. With evil, they’re a slave to you. If I ever get a great deal of power, I’ll probably abuse it. But by then, you’ll have forgotten about this little weblog entry. Maybe you’ll wish you had remembered.

I wonder if anyone else would openly admit that they’d choose the “evil” path. I think this makes me worse than most people. It’s said that even the most evil people think that they’re doing good, from their point of view. I, on the other hand, have openly chosen a path that I know would only benefit me.

Or am I better, because I’m one of the few truly being honest with myself?

Elegant Solution to an Inelegant Problem

Not talking about hypocrisy today, but I will sometime next week. I started driving today, but that’s not the inelegant problem — I’ll relate that experience tomorrow, perhaps.

The inelegant problem is 12-year-old AOLer fans. Yes, I officially got my first stereotypical 12-year-old AOLer fan of my website, psycho-ward.org, very recently. He sent an e-mail going a little something like this:

Antitin said:

“Theres this anoying kid at my skool and i hate him! can to tell him hes gay and has no freinds.

PS: we call him tinny cuz he lives in a trailor”

Aren’t kids horrible these days? He even IMed me. A screen name like “eatcatpoop0123” is a dead give away to a person’s age. If not that, then the mixed caps and mispellings in the conversation would have given it away.

If that person ends up reading this, then I say, “Enjoy my site and keep those kinds of comments to yourself.”

On to the other part of the entry’s title: elegant solution. I have posted a different screen name on my website. I don’t want my screen name swamped by young kids who don’t know how to type. I’m solving the problem before I become some kind of internet semi-celebrity (if ever). I mean, I like people IMing me and telling me that my website is cool, but I don’t like people IMing me and telling me, “OMG U R WEBSEIT iS Da kEWLeST!!11!!!”

But if I put I different screen name on, how do any “good” fans IM me? Simple, I use an AIM cloner. Yet, I find cloning a hassle, especially since my computer is a little bit short of memory, and space on the C: drive. Thus, on the denizens page, I put that I’m usually online between 4 and 6pm PST. Now, I only have the cloner on for a limited time. As a bonus, it’ll be easier if fans want to find me. And yes, I do actually have good fans.

Cheap Graphing

I find it’s easier to graph if I only use two points (for linear equations) and an appropriate scale on my graph. However, that doesn’t make it any less crappiful (ooh, new word).

I sent in an application for a TA job for ATDP this summer. Now, I wait and see what happens.

Tonight, I am tired from trombone lessons, fencing, and my illness. Tomorrow, I will write about hypocrisy and its relation to stupidity, thus ending this slew of short updates.

Graphing by Hand

Graphing by hand is for losers. It is dumb. I hate graphing. I must speak to my math teacher about this. Why did I buy a graphing calculator if I do this by hand?

So, AP Bio test was completed owned by me, even though the announcements came on during our test. Damn bastards. They’re reporting it to the AP Board (they have to). If those idiots make me retake the test… I hope it doesn’t come to that. It wasn’t a big incident, or that long, so they should ignore it.

Soon, I should be back into the swing of things with more substantial updates.

Sleep, Memory, and Tests

Sleep helps long-term memory formation. I think I read that in Discover magazine at one point. Relevance? I must get enough sleep for that test.

Next time you’re sleeping in class just say that you’re helping build your long-term memory capacity.

AP Bio: Too Much Memorization

I hate AP Biology. I feel as if there’s just enough stuff to memorize that I can’t quite memorize it all. I’ll restate that too much emphasis on memorization is bad for learning. Let’s see how much I actually remember at the end of summer.

Being Sick is Bad For You

Having never 100% recovered from my previous illness, I now am beginning to feel the onset of another illness. Hopefully, it’ll go away this weekend, so as not to add to the misery of studying for my AP Biology Exam. Updates will be less than substantial because of this studying/cramming.

20 Questions AI

Try out this version of 20 Questions. A computer AI gives you questions and tries to guess what object you’re thinking of. You can get some pretty funny results, even when you answer truthfully.

For example, I was thinking of a nightstick and it asked if police used this and I said yes. Later on, it asks if it would be found on a farm. Have fun with this. If I get any hilarious results tomorrow, I’ll post it.

In Step

People walk in step with each other. It’s funny. When I think about it, it makes sense logically. How else are people supposed to keep talking with each other when walking? Despite having different heights, people keep this up. Just scan people next time you’re looking out into space and see it with your own eyes.

Whenever obstacles are encountered, or the route is curved, then the in step motion is discontinued. My next goal is to see if people who aren’t talking to each other walk in step. Then, I must see if people further apart still walk in step.

Very small children are an exception. They sort of walk in step, but their little legs cause them to gradually fall behind. As a result, every so often they did this quick little run. It’s hard to explain, but you’ll know it when you see it.

The reason this is funny is because people naturally walk in step with each other, but when we have to march (as in marching band) it takes us forever to be able to do this. As to how it relates to agnoiology… it’s because many of us have failed to notice such a simple observation.

Remember when I posted about school vs. video games? Here’s Quad’s perspective on the issue. (Quad was one of my teachers at ATDP last year.) I thought it was interesting how we came up with similar points independently.

Iraq: Evaluations

So, the war has been stated to be “officially” over. I had criticized the number of troops in the region, but they still got the job done okay. The public was too impatient. However, I still stand by my statement that they should have brought more troops because it would have increased the confidence of the public.

How difficult is the rebuilding going to be? It actually doesn’t seem to be going so badly. There is a certain catch-22 the US is in. There are some who want the US out right away. Yet, if the US gets out before a government is formed, an Islamic fundamentalist government will most likely form, and others will be repressed.

I know I was in support of the war but others saying that those troops were “fighting to protect our freedom” isn’t quite true. It’s a nice piece of propaganda, but not true. Those in the US weren’t in immediate danger.

Links to al-Qaeda are being found. Somehow, this doesn’t surprise me. With those, we don’t even have to find any WMD.

Religious Person at the Doorstep

I was playing piano and I heard the doorbell ring. Figuring it was my parents, I opened the door. I instantly see the suit and I know it has got to be some religious bloke. At least he was rather polite, and he wasn’t a Jehovah’s Witness. I think he was opening up a new church and was trying to recruit people. I know I’ve probably changed some of the details and left things out, but here’s a recount of the short conversation:

“Are your parents home?”
“No, they’re not.”
[hands me something, gives a quick introduction of himself, blah blah]
I don’t know what impelled me to, but I say, “Actually, I’m an atheist.”
“Oh, how old are you?”
“Sixteen.”
“Do you think you’re old enough to make a decision to be an atheist?”
“Yes, I do.”
“Did you know it takes more faith to be an atheist than being a Christian?”
“No, because atheism is the default position, you don’t start out believing, you don’t have to know anything really…”
“So, you’re saying you don’t know anything.”
[Okay, that was my mistake. I meant this: Animals don’t believe in a god. Babies, when born, don’t believe in anything. They’re born atheists. I lose the point there.]
“Well, not exactly.”
“That’s what you said. Do you go to a church?”
“No, I don’t.”
“Have you ever gone to one?”
“No, I have not.”
“What about your parents?”
“I don’t know. But, at my school, I’ve taken religious classes, so I think I’m rather informed.” [I go to a catholic school.]
“Learned all about all the religions.” [emphasis mine. I think he may have been thinking something about the whole ‘equal’ treatment of all religions thing.]
“Well, no, but I’m planning on taking a major religions of the world course.” [which I actually am going to, already signed up]
“Tell me, what happens when you die?”
“I decompose.” [easily my best line. I say this calmly. If I was unsure, he would have attacked. Instead, it seems as if I’m sure and resigned to this fact.]
“That’s very interesting.” [he tells me about the back of the handout, tells me to read it. We shake hands.]
[exit, door closes]

I wish I was a quicker thinker than I already am, but then again, I didn’t want to be rude. I don’t believe I came across as a teenage smart-ass.

Actually, remembering another event is why I said it, now that I’m reviewing my motives here. My family and I were at a restaurant and some guy comes up to us. He says that we must be a good Christian family because we were really nice-looking and quiet, etc. We aren’t Christian, but none of us really say much. He can infer it, but we’re not overly contrary to him. So, I guess this was something of a second chance for me.

The guy was nice, and he didn’t try to uber-proselytize. He just wanted people to know about his new church and wanted to give them an opportunity to join. I think he was the pastor. I don’t remember because I threw away the sheet.

Well, I thought it was a bit interesting. This is the first real event that inspired a thoughtful weblog entry.