I’m finding it hard to stay motivated. There are moments where I’m having lots of fun and other moments when I feel really blah. I’m really lacking in focus. I think part of the problem is that my life has no structure right now. Without school or work, my life is completely unorganized and I have no sense of time. Another part of it is that now that I’m in a new location, all my old rituals have disappeared. I don’t eat dinner or lunch at the same time. I don’t have pool club every week. I let slide those habits I had worked to acquire.

Part of this will be solved on its own when I start my summer job. For now, though, I need to introduce more structure into my life. I’ll start with what time I wake up in the morning. I just need to start feeling some control over my life. I need to feel like the master of my time.